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Lost but Wandering
I’m a bit lost, heck, I’m not entirely sure what’s going on, or what i’m doing. Now if you give… Read more
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A Stroll with Seven Sisters
Well first off I don’t have seven sisters or even one, but what I do have is one person in… Read more
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Sleep.
Oh how much fun counting the sheep.
I wish I could stay.
You wouldn’t here a peep.
How about you stay for a while.
Escape my reality.
Slipping through my finger tips.
Don’t leave me.
Oh sleep, why you so sweet.
You never stay.
Keep me at peace.
Why don’t you stay for a week.
Forget about the outside world.
Enter the deep sleep. -
Modern Racism
This will likely be a controversial one, but it’s something I have to say… It’s been a little while now… Read more
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Do You Really Live in Reality, Or Do You See What You Want
If you truly open your eyes you’ll realise, It’s pretty hard to be happy in world where there is so… Read more
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Trapped
Claustrophobic.
Anxiety inducing.
You can see the light but you can’t get out.
Trapped.
An inner turmoil.
A vine a wrapped around your leg.
It won’t let you go.
As the day bleeds into the night.
You’re still here.
When will you grow.
The bruises suffocate you.
Choking.
Asphyxiation.
It closes in around you.
Tightens.
You only have one option now. -
Experimenting with a new moody landscape styleMore available each day on my Instagram @BiographicalBean
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More Photography on my Instagram @biographicalbean
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A Future, Maybe
I’m going to try to write an actual post again today, it’s been a while and the two posts I… Read more
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Insta @biographicalbean
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I don’t really post much of my photography on here, I primarily post them on my Instagram @biographicalbean. However you… Read more
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Defeated
Defeated. A dreary acceptance. Resilient no more. The toll has been paid. Where a man once stood proud. Heads are… Read more
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Heartless
Cold.
A vacuous space.
Nothing, nothing inside.
A void.
Frozen.
Longing to be thawed.
Blackened and scarred.
Charred on the outside, from when it once roared.
When it scorched.
It burns no more.
Ashes, from the ashes.
The phoenix does not rise.
Now tell me.
Will you heal me, or will you kill me.
A little more each time. -
Mr Nice Guy
Smiling.
Helping.
Sincere.
Emphatic.
On the outside.
Crumbling.
Raging.
Laughing.
Lying.
On the inside.
A facade of ill intelligence.
I know everything.
Lies.
I see through them.
Take advantage of me.
I’m just Biding my time.
To strike. -
Pacing
Pacing.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
On my mind.
You’re in my mind.
Pacing.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Don’t feel right no more.
Something isn’t right.
Pacing.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Words said.
On my mind.
In my mind.
In my fucking mind.
Pacing.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Shadows of doubt.
Questioning everything.
Pacing.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Insane.
Am I going insane.
Pacing.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Raging.
Crying.
Laughing.
Pacing.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Back and forth… -
What Our Language Really Says
So I deleted the last post, I was full of rage, and I still somewhat am, however I don’t want… Read more
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I’m Okay, But I am Not, But That’s Okay
I’ve had a lot of people contact or speak to me lately, most of them asking if i’m okay, most… Read more
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Off the Radar
I recently ran out of data on my phone, I have 50gb data plan, so actually it’s pretty bad that… Read more
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Racing
Racing, On my mind.
Fixated.
Unhealthy obsession of mine.
Look away.
You’re back here.
Again.
Continuous cycle.
A million possibilities.
You always choose the worst.
Good turns to bad.
You sabotage your own happiness.
Waiting.
Waiting for a reason to believe.
Distractions, are only temporary.
Medication.
There is no cure.
Up the dose.
No more.
No cure.
Broken.
Both mind, and Heart.
Broken.
Words resonate.
Bleeding thoughts.
Don’t touch me.
Unworthy.
Feelings of doubt.
Death my sweet release.
I will not take you.
It dwindles.
The light flickers.
Sleepless,
Restless,
Those last words.
Etched into my mind.
Playing on repeat.
A slave to the phrase.
All I have now.
Hold onto it.
All you have.
It fades though.
Through your fingertips.
Try to catch it.
It’s slipping.
You scream.
No answer.
Is it tainted now.
Dishonesty.
Crumbling.
Streaming.
Somehow you’re laughing now.
One day, it’ll be okay.
One day. -
Patience
An unsteady rage broths,
Boiling,
An uncertainty consumes you,
Answers never told,
What have you wronged,
Feelings turn sour,
Bitterness,
But it is not true,
Senses blinded temporarily,
Your mind taunts you,
But does it,
Maybe you’re right,
Worthless,
A tale forgotten about,
Made to be nothing,
A Facade,
Words never to be said,
No words,
The sense, it cannot be mistook,
You must endure,
Patience. -
Our Earth
“I feel like more than 3/4 of the population is the later, it’s like we’re just pretending everything is fine, we’ve made our own propaganda in our heads, it’s something you’d see in the movies, maybe it’s too hard to admit we’ve ruined our planet, but you’ve got to open your eyes, especially if you have or want children. It is their future, not ours, we will all inevitably die regardless, so stop being so selfish.
I know it’s hard to do so sometime when we talk about a world which we won’t even be in, but it’ll be our childrens children and that has to count for something right.
I suppose when I think about it I turn a blind eye to a lot of things, I don’t watch or read the news, my social media is curated exactly how I want to see it, so maybe I’m part of the problem too, it’s not like I’m not aware but I often find it a burden knowing all the troubles of the world when I sometimes struggle to balance my own, the media use of fear invoking tactics do not help and they only distract you from what is really going on behind the scenes, when was the last time we was honest with ourselves?”
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Instantaneous Patience
Have you ever noticed that we lack patience these days, we want everything fast and instantaneous, we crave fast internet,… Read more
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Vulnerabilities
I wasn’t really planning on coming back here for a while, not until I had come to terms with what… Read more
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Insignificant
It’s been a little while since I’ve written anything proper, I’ve been working on a new project, but I won’t… Read more
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A Falsified Suicide
During an extended phone call yesterday with my friend, he sends me over some pretty embarrassing photos of myself from… Read more
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Forgotten Self
You might find myself slightly contradictory with this one, however I gave it some thought and I think it has… Read more
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Darkness
Light seeps through eyelids,It’s light but it’s still dark,Something lurks,A shadow,Something that was once more,Can you trust it,A husk of… Read more
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Művészet in London
Translation: “Art in London”, it doesn’t quite have the same ring to it does it, I tried the thesaurus for… Read more
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Purpose
I’m left questioning something deep, after a conversation with someone recently, does life have a true purpose. We’d been chatting… Read more
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Past
The past is a funny one, often we find ourselves stuck in it, and as the cliche goes “Time Heals… Read more
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The Pursuit for Happiness
I think all of us long to be wholesomely happy, we chase it, whether it’s you realise it or not,… Read more
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Gratification
It’s funny how you can find simple gratification in little things in life, often we spend our time trying to… Read more
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Toxic Media
It’s funny how you often remember the bad times but quickly forget the good times. The world these days is… Read more
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Cancer.
I haven’t really spoken about this much, partly because I can’t change it, it’s just one of those things, but… Read more
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A Different Sense
I’m feeling good, for the first time in a long time I feel different, like maybe a new person, I… Read more
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Project Schizophrenia
“Schizophrenia is a severe long-term mental health condition. It causes a range of different psychological symptoms.Doctors often describe schizophrenia as a… Read more
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Mental Health and I
Buckle up ladies and gentlemen, because this post is about to get both emotional and personal, also its gonna be… Read more
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Day Out at Beaulieu
My friend had messaged me a few days, asking if i’d like to accompany him and his kids to Beaulieu… Read more
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Dreams or Reality.
It’s 6PM Sunday 26th May, and for the first time in nearly a month I am tired, well let me… Read more
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Why Did You Bring a Gun For a Walk…
So it’s 4:13AM 25th May and I’m sat here outside in the forest, cocooned in a sleeping bag, listening to… Read more
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A Moment of Serenity
So this is the first one… The first post into a new journey of self discovery and probable nonsense. I… Read more