Recent Thoughts

  • Aug 16, 2019 by

    Sleep.
    Oh how much fun counting the sheep.
    I wish I could stay.
    You wouldn’t here a peep.
    How about you stay for a while.
    Escape my reality.
    Slipping through my finger tips.
    Don’t leave me.
    Oh sleep, why you so sweet.
    You never stay.
    Keep me at peace.
    Why don’t you stay for a week.
    Forget about the outside world.
    Enter the deep sleep.

  • Trapped

    Aug 3, 2019 by

    Claustrophobic.
    Anxiety inducing.
    You can see the light but you can’t get out.
    Trapped.
    An inner turmoil.
    A vine a wrapped around your leg.
    It won’t let you go.
    As the day bleeds into the night.
    You’re still here.
    When will you grow.
    The bruises suffocate you.
    Choking.
    Asphyxiation.
    It closes in around you.
    Tightens.
    You only have one option now.

  • Aug 3, 2019 by

    Experimenting with a new moody landscape styleMore available each day on my Instagram @BiographicalBean

  • Jul 30, 2019 by

    More Photography on my Instagram @biographicalbean

  • Jul 27, 2019 by

    I don’t really post much of my photography on here, I primarily post them on my Instagram @biographicalbean. However you… Read more

  • Defeated

    Jul 25, 2019 by

    Defeated. A dreary acceptance. Resilient no more. The toll has been paid. Where a man once stood proud. Heads are… Read more

  • Heartless

    Jul 16, 2019 by

    Cold.
    A vacuous space.
    Nothing, nothing inside.
    A void.
    Frozen.
    Longing to be thawed.
    Blackened and scarred.
    Charred on the outside, from when it once roared.
    When it scorched.
    It burns no more.
    Ashes, from the ashes.
    The phoenix does not rise.
    Now tell me.
    Will you heal me, or will you kill me.
    A little more each time.

  • Mr Nice Guy

    Jul 14, 2019 by

    Smiling.
    Helping.
    Sincere.
    Emphatic.
    On the outside.
    Crumbling.
    Raging.
    Laughing.
    Lying.
    On the inside.
    A facade of ill intelligence.
    I know everything.
    Lies.
    I see through them.
    Take advantage of me.
    I’m just Biding my time.
    To strike.

  • Pacing

    Jul 13, 2019 by

    Pacing.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    On my mind.
    You’re in my mind.
    Pacing.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    Don’t feel right no more.
    Something isn’t right.
    Pacing.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    Words said.
    On my mind.
    In my mind.
    In my fucking mind.
    Pacing.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    Shadows of doubt.
    Questioning everything.
    Pacing.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    Insane.
    Am I going insane.
    Pacing.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    Raging.
    Crying.
    Laughing.
    Pacing.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth.
    Back and forth…

  • Racing

    Jun 23, 2019 by

    Racing, On my mind.

    Fixated.
    Unhealthy obsession of mine.
    Look away.
    You’re back here.
    Again.
    Continuous cycle.
    A million possibilities.
    You always choose the worst.
    Good turns to bad.
    You sabotage your own happiness.
    Waiting.
    Waiting for a reason to believe.
    Distractions, are only temporary.
    Medication.
    There is no cure.
    Up the dose.
    No more.
    No cure.
    Broken.
    Both mind, and Heart.
    Broken.
    Words resonate.
    Bleeding thoughts.
    Don’t touch me.
    Unworthy.
    Feelings of doubt.
    Death my sweet release.
    I will not take you.
    It dwindles.
    The light flickers.
    Sleepless,
    Restless,
    Those last words.
    Etched into my mind.
    Playing on repeat.
    A slave to the phrase.
    All I have now.
    Hold onto it.
    All you have.
    It fades though.
    Through your fingertips.
    Try to catch it.
    It’s slipping.
    You scream.
    No answer.
    Is it tainted now.
    Dishonesty.
    Crumbling.
    Streaming.
    Somehow you’re laughing now.
    One day, it’ll be okay.
    One day.

  • Patience

    Jun 21, 2019 by

    An unsteady rage broths,
    Boiling,
    An uncertainty consumes you,
    Answers never told,
    What have you wronged,
    Feelings turn sour,
    Bitterness,
    But it is not true,
    Senses blinded temporarily,
    Your mind taunts you,
    But does it,
    Maybe you’re right,
    Worthless,
    A tale forgotten about,
    Made to be nothing,
    A Facade,
    Words never to be said,
    No words,
    The sense, it cannot be mistook,
    You must endure,
    Patience.

  • Our Earth

    Jun 21, 2019 by

    “I feel like more than 3/4 of the population is the later, it’s like we’re just pretending everything is fine, we’ve made our own propaganda in our heads, it’s something you’d see in the movies, maybe it’s too hard to admit we’ve ruined our planet, but you’ve got to open your eyes, especially if you have or want children. It is their future, not ours, we will all inevitably die regardless, so stop being so selfish.

    I know it’s hard to do so sometime when we talk about a world which we won’t even be in, but it’ll be our childrens children and that has to count for something right.

    I suppose when I think about it I turn a blind eye to a lot of things, I don’t watch or read the news, my social media is curated exactly how I want to see it, so maybe I’m part of the problem too, it’s not like I’m not aware but I often find it a burden knowing all the troubles of the world when I sometimes struggle to balance my own, the media use of fear invoking tactics do not help and they only distract you from what is really going on behind the scenes, when was the last time we was honest with ourselves?”

  • Darkness

    Jun 12, 2019 by

    Light seeps through eyelids,It’s light but it’s still dark,Something lurks,A shadow,Something that was once more,Can you trust it,A husk of… Read more

  • Purpose

    Jun 9, 2019 by

    I’m left questioning something deep, after a conversation with someone recently, does life have a true purpose. We’d been chatting… Read more

  • Past

    Jun 6, 2019 by

    The past is a funny one, often we find ourselves stuck in it, and as the cliche goes “Time Heals… Read more

  • Cancer.

    Jun 1, 2019 by

    I haven’t really spoken about this much, partly because I can’t change it, it’s just one of those things, but… Read more

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