Racing

Racing, On my mind.

Fixated.
Unhealthy obsession of mine.
Look away.
You’re back here.
Again.
Continuous cycle.
A million possibilities.
You always choose the worst.
Good turns to bad.
You sabotage your own happiness.
Waiting.
Waiting for a reason to believe.
Distractions, are only temporary.
Medication.
There is no cure.
Up the dose.
No more.
No cure.
Broken.
Both mind, and Heart.
Broken.
Words resonate.
Bleeding thoughts.
Don’t touch me.
Unworthy.
Feelings of doubt.
Death my sweet release.
I will not take you.
It dwindles.
The light flickers.
Sleepless,
Restless,
Those last words.
Etched into my mind.
Playing on repeat.
A slave to the phrase.
All I have now.
Hold onto it.
All you have.
It fades though.
Through your fingertips.
Try to catch it.
It’s slipping.
You scream.
No answer.
Is it tainted now.
Dishonesty.
Crumbling.
Streaming.
Somehow you’re laughing now.
One day, it’ll be okay.
One day.