Racing

Racing, On my mind.

Fixated.
Unhealthy obsession of mine.
Look away.
You’re back here.
Again.
Continuous cycle.
A million possibilities.
You always choose the worst.
Good turns to bad.
You sabotage your own happiness.
Waiting.
Waiting for a reason to believe.
Distractions, are only temporary.
Medication.
There is no cure.
Up the dose.
No more.
No cure.
Broken.
Both mind, and Heart.
Broken.
Words resonate.
Bleeding thoughts.
Don’t touch me.
Unworthy.
Feelings of doubt.
Death my sweet release.
I will not take you.
It dwindles.
The light flickers.
Sleepless,
Restless,
Those last words.
Etched into my mind.
Playing on repeat.
A slave to the phrase.
All I have now.
Hold onto it.
All you have.
It fades though.
Through your fingertips.
Try to catch it.
It’s slipping.
You scream.
No answer.
Is it tainted now.
Dishonesty.
Crumbling.
Streaming.
Somehow you’re laughing now.
One day, it’ll be okay.
One day.

Our Earth

“I feel like more than 3/4 of the population is the later, it’s like we’re just pretending everything is fine, we’ve made our own propaganda in our heads, it’s something you’d see in the movies, maybe it’s too hard to admit we’ve ruined our planet, but you’ve got to open your eyes, especially if you have or want children. It is their future, not ours, we will all inevitably die regardless, so stop being so selfish.

I know it’s hard to do so sometime when we talk about a world which we won’t even be in, but it’ll be our childrens children and that has to count for something right.

I suppose when I think about it I turn a blind eye to a lot of things, I don’t watch or read the news, my social media is curated exactly how I want to see it, so maybe I’m part of the problem too, it’s not like I’m not aware but I often find it a burden knowing all the troubles of the world when I sometimes struggle to balance my own, the media use of fear invoking tactics do not help and they only distract you from what is really going on behind the scenes, when was the last time we was honest with ourselves?”